I’m engaged! I guess the title says it all right? This has been one of the most beautiful yet stressful times of my life. And it’s not because I’m just engaged, but it’s because my fiancee lives in Seattle, Washington [where Amazon and Starbucks were founded in case you didn’t know ;)] and I live in Sacramento, California.
There are so many complicating things that need to happen, on my end, in order for me to move to Seattle. I need to buy a car (I haven’t owned a car for almost a year and a half since I’ve been doing overseas mission work) I need to find a job, and I need to find a temporary place to live in Seattle before our wedding.
Fear is Not in Control
A serious issue I’ve had during this time is letting fear take control of my life. We’ll never have enough money. I’m going to end up working at a job that sucks. And so on. There are also other personal things my fiancee and I and trying to figure out during this time as well. One thing I will say is that two of many things sustaining our relationship are faith and love.
Since my fiancee and I met on a Christian dating website while I was living in Spain and she was living in the United States, it’s safe to say that faith and trust have gotten us to where we are now. I’ve been a Christian my entire life, but I’m experiencing some of the hardest personal battles of my life during this time.
Yes, I’m excited and yes I’m looking forward to sharing my life with the love of my life, but one of the scariest things for me in all this is going back to get a normal job. The fear that I have is that I’ll get stuck in a rut like I did for eight and a half years at a job I hated in the past.
What You Focus On You Become
One of the things my fiancee, Mary Lee (Lee for short), told me recently is that it’s impossible for me to go back to living the way I did before because of what I’ve already experienced. That was super encouraging for me because I didn’t have much faith at that moment. What she told me brought so much joy to me because she reminded me that I’m no longer the same person today after ministering in Africa, France, The Middle East, and in Spain.
What I choose to focus on is who God created me to be. I focus on nothing more and nothing less. God has called me to be a missionary and to share the Gospel with as many people as possible. Does that mean that I won’t work at Walmart as a cashier for a season? No. Does it mean I won’t fix cars on the side every once and a while to make money? No.
All that means is that regardless of what I do from day to day, I need to remember what I’m really created to do. People at Walmart and the mechanic shop need Jesus too, and you better believe I’m gonna share the Gospel of Jesus with them.
Miracles in the Mechanic Shop
When I worked at my last job, I hated it so much. The people were super nice, but the job was just really boring for me. All I did was take out the trash, drive customers home, pick the customers up, wash cars, and sit on my computer for hours because I’d finish my work early.
Often times, no more work would be assigned to me when I finished, even if I asked for more work. I was so bored that I wanted to pull the hairs out of my head, jump out the window and run away, or both. Something had to change, and fast. Then, one day the Lord rebuked me for being bored at work.
The reason the Lord rebuked me is that He reminded me that I am not only a Christian at church, but I’m a Christian at work too. That means Jesus can show up anywhere at anytime! After I had that revelation, I started sharing the Gospel with people at my job.
On one occasion at work, while I was washing cars, I had a long conversation with one of my coworkers about the war in the Middle East. We talked about how Jesus is going to bring change to that situation. On another day at work, another one of my coworkers had pain in his leg. After I prayed for him, the pain went away immediately!
After my other coworkers heard that testimony, a couple of them came to me to ask for prayer for physical pain, and they also wanted prayer for their families. After I prayed for them, all their physical pain went away immediately too! Once I saw Jesus healing all of my coworkers and filling them with His hope and love, and I really started to like my job a lot!
It’s Not About Where You Are
At the end of the day, it’s not about where you are that matters, but it’s about knowing who you are and Who’s you are that counts for eternity. I haven’t had a regular job in almost two years, and thinking about going back to a regular job is really scary since I know God has called me to be a missionary and a writer. But for now, God has called me to be a missionary to the people right in front of me.
As I remain obedient to what He says, I know everything else will work itself out. My next missions field is Seattle, Washington where I’ll also marry the love of my life. I look forward to seeing how God will use my future wife and me to demonstrate God’s Kingdom on earth!
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